i not myself...

last week i was back to ipoh on saturday...
lucky my highest godness give me a good weather when the journey back to ipoh in car...
saturday and sunday
i think i not back for worship grandmother
but is eat...
just eat along the journey...T__T

Monday, today
actually is this few day
i am lost
i hate temper...
but i am a temper...
i try to be calm
but i lose.....

this few day
i am blank...
soul, body, mind, enegry all for the thing are not combine...
we are separate...
no motive, just empty...
even feeling also don't have

i just a body without a soul
i am unstable
i am mess

i pain, i hurt...
from myself...
i lost, i lose
because i am the weakest person in the world...

===See my owb shadow, even breathing also will be painful, i'm not myself===